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Monday, September 14, 2009
FINALLY......
DURING THE sEPTEMBER sCHOOL bREAK, MY PARENTS DID NOT ALLOWED ME TO GO TO THE gUNDAM sEED fUN fAIR.... bUT.... fINALLY.... i'M FREE AND I COULD GO.... aT THE vERY lAST dAY OF tHE gUNDAM sEED fUN fAIR... *APPLAUSE*... yESTERDAY, sUNDAY, ME AND (lOLA)cINDY WENT TO oRCHARD cK tANGS AFTER THE eVANGELISM... tHERE WAS THIS CRAZY hANNAH mONTANA sALE... aND...mE, bEING A hANNAH mONTANA fAN (OR rATHER mILEY cYRUS) WANTED TO BUY SOME OF HER STUFF... sADLY, i DIDN'T HAVE ENOUGH MONEY TO BUY COZ MY MOM ONLY GAVE ME $10, COZ SHE GAVE ME $10 A DAY FOR THIS WEEK WHICH MAKES IT $60 EXCLUDING SUNDAY... sO... i'M AFRAID THE STOCKS MIGHT RUN OUT BUT i CANT STARVE ,MYSELF jUST TO bUY tHESE sTUFF... bUT........................................... tODAY, AFTER GOIN TO THE gUNDAM fUN fAIR, i WENT BACK TO ck TANGS AND THE STUFFS WERE ALL STILL THERE AND i BOUGHT IT.... ..................................................................................... sUNDAY: yAY! mY ONE AND oNLY oFFICIAL sISTER cAME BACK TO cHURCH! *APPPALUSE* aND nOAH gREW A lOT AND KNOWS HOW TO CLAP, dANCE AND wALK A bIT...yAY! tHE pREACHER WAS gOOOOOOOD! aLTHOUGH HIS VOICE IS KINDA SCARY... aT NIGHT i DID ALL MY uNFINISHED hW, bUT dUE TO uNSATISfACTION, i HAVE TO DO IT TILL 4.30 A.M.....*wHAT tHE.............1?* AND WAKE UP AT 6 AM mONDAY: aLTHOUGH ONLY HAD 1.5 HOURS OF SLEEP, i WAS SO ALERT AND HYPER ALTHOUGH I DIN'T DRANK COFFEE...cANNY WAS THE FIRST TO HIGHLIGHT TO ME THAT FACT...i WAS PRETTY SURPRISED MYSELF THAT i DINT fAINT.... aFTER sCHOOL, WENT HOME, CHANGED, rUSHED TO cOMPASS pOINT, sENK kANG TO THE gUNDAM fUN fAIR.... lST dAY oF tHE fUN fAIR.... LUCKILY, tHEY wERE sELLING gUNDAMS FROM ALL THE GUNDAM SERIES, INCLUDING MY FAVOURITE, gUNDAM SEED AND gUNDAM SEED DESTINY SERIES.... sO, i WAS aFRAID MY MOM WOULD FREAK OUT COZ I BOUGHT TOO MANY "FREAKY, USELESS ROBOTS THAT IS JUST A WASTE OF MONEY"... sO, i ONLY BOUGHT oNE; kIRA YAMTO'S ALL MOST POWERFUL, "sTRIKE-fREEDOM"!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! OH THEN i BOUGHT ALL SORT OF eXTRA gUNDAM sOUVENIERS.... aFTER THAT, i RAN tO oRCHARD, AS I SAID, TO BUY hANNAHmONTANA sTUFFS........... aND wHERE DID I GET ALL THE MONEY???????????????????????????????????/ fOM MY "PIGGY bANK"...ITS NOT REALLY A PIGGY BANK COZ ITS REALLY A COW WHICH MOO'S EVERYTIME U INSERT A COIN.... MY MOM ADDED EXTRA MONEY COZ I INSISTED ON GOIN THOUGH WE HAVE A LOT OF HOMEWORK.... bUT i'M dOIN IT..... i GOT fREE iCE-CREAM FROM ONE OF MY FAV iCE CREAM sTORES, "i SCREAM"...BCOZ I SHOWED THEM MY CARD...EVEN THOUGH I COULD CHOOSE TO HAVE DOUBLE SCOOP PLUS TOPPINGS, COZ ITS FREE, i CHOOSED A PLAIN SINDGLE SCOOPED "cHOCOLATE mINT sWIRL" (mY NO. ONE fAVOURITE iCE-CREAM fLAVOUR)!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! aLL bCOZ i DIDN'T WANT MY MOM TO SAY I LOST MY APPETITE BCOZ OF THAT iCE cREAM, bUT ITS OK............... p.s: i CAN'T POST VERY OFTEN COZ MY fIRST eND-OF-yEAR pAPER IS 2 WEEKS AWAY SO THE TEACHERS ARE LIKE GIVING US LOADS OF HOMEWORKS, TEST AND STUFF.... OH AND WISH ME LUCK/PRAY FOR ME ON fRIDAY COZ ITS OUR PASSING-oUT pARADE.... eACH OF US WOULD HAVE TO TRY TO COMMAND THE WHOLE SEC. 1 SQUAD WITH WHATEVER cOMMANDS WE WANT TO SAY/REMEMBER/LEARNT.... SO BYE.............................. Amateur Journalist left the world of darkness on 8:59 PM Saturday, September 5, 2009
Last Day Of School For 3rd Term....
Ok so let me tell you first.... You won't get some of the so-called 'jokes'... But I tell you we really laughed a lot.... Ok so I could only remember 2 major 'laughing stock' in our class... 1: So our EL/History teacher, Mrs.Tng, was talking about why she was absent on teachers day. She said she got food poisoning,blah,blah,blah. And that she accept our "wish-you-wells", etc. and that although many of us were quite upset, there are some who were probably rejoicing and cursing her,etc. Then one of our classmate, S.Y., said something to her, he insulted her actually. Then Mrs.Tng, instead of scolding him just said, "Um, excuse me S.Y., in my religion if I believe in God/ Jesus Christ, I would go to heaven no matter what other people do to me or whether people curse me bcoz He would protect me". (It wasn't her exact words but something like that. And she is a Christian). Later on, Mrs.Tng told S.Y. something bcoz he owed her alot of works/homework, etc. To him it was a threat, but it was nothing major. So he responded in a dramatic tone, "I believe in Jesus Christ. So he would protect me!" (it would not have been funny if he really WERE a christian but he is not.) So we all laugh bcoz he kinda copied what Mrs. Tng Said. 2:History Period (same teacher, same 'joker') So we were all getting ready to greet the teacher good bye as in the whole class will say, "Thank you Mrs. Tng". So teacher was kinda trying to irritate us by keeping us longer. So she kept on saying,"Ok,ok, keep quiet". Then we were all like groaning then she keeps on saying the same thing and it goes on and on for like five times. ok so here is the scenario: Mrs. Tng: THANK YOU CLASS! (the Class were about to bow and say "thank you Mrs. Tng") *Barney Song* Class stopped in mid-bow and mid-sentence. Giggles and stiffled laughs echoed in the classroom. SY (the same guy on scenario 1) felt about his pocket, fished out his phone and 'decline' a call mor something. Them he looked up and Mrs. Tng and say, "Sorry" in a tone that shows he doesn't really care. The whole class, including Mrs. Tng, were staring at SY with shock and horror at his childish taste of ring tones, except for those few who already knew his 'secret', laughed, including me. Then Mrs. Tng regained her posture and cleared her throat, "Well SY, we thought that we knew all your bad side but it turns out that even if it was the last day of school (of term 3), it brought the worst out of you". The whole class laugh... ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------- The Names here are not the real names of the person indiated. The official names of the people in these post are not used in order to protect his/her identity. ------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Amateur Journalist left the world of darkness on 7:24 PM Tuesday, September 1, 2009
Look, I know you are not causing any harm to me,
not offending me, not mocking me or something, but I just want to say that whatever you and my friend/s are fighting about I'M OUT OF IT! I'm not angry or something, I mean at LEAST not angry with you, but I'm just curious who you really are... I mean I know deep down even if you think you are just a person, just maybe bcoz you want to stay hidden or you think you are pretty useless(but i don't think that) still I believe you have a name.... that every one deserves to know.... I can post anything I like here.... COZ ITS MY BLOG! BUT PLS.... I'M NOT LOOKING FOR TROUBLE, FOR A WAR TO START, IT MIGHT BE A SMALL WAR, BUT ITS A WAR BETWEEN SPIRITUAL SIBLINGS THAT COULD END UP DESTROYING RELATIONSHIPS GOD CREATED FOR US TO HELP EACH OTHER, WHEN WE FALL, THAT SOMEONE WOULD HELP PICK US UP. BUT OF COURSE I ANNOT ANYHOW ASSUME WHO YOU ARE.... AND I HAVEN'T GOT A CLUE.... I MEAN THERE HAS BEEN SEVERAL ASSUMPTIONS BY MY 'FRIENDS' BUT I'LL JUST TRY TO IGNORE IT BCOZ ONLY GOD KNOWS..... I ADVISE YOU, THAT WHATEVER YOU READ IN MY BLOG, IS JUST MY OPINION, EVEN THOUGH I ONLY NOT BASE IT IN MY OWN FEELINGS, DON'T MAKE A BIG DEAL OUT OF IT... I MEAN JUST EXPRESSING MY FEELINGS, IF YOU FEEL THE SAME WAY, I THINK ITS BEST IF YOU KEEP IT TO YOURSELF, I MEAN SERIOUSLY I'M NOT ANGRY BUT YOU HAVE NO IDEA, WHAT KINDS OF STUFF PEOPLE WOULD SAY TO YOU THAT THEY DON'T REALLY MEAN WHEN THEY'RE ANGRY.... AS FOR MY FEELINGS TO THAT ' 1ST PERSON ' I TALKED ABOUT, I STILL FEEL THE SAME WAY, I MEAN I TALK TO HER BUT JUST A LITTLE BIT, I MEAN OUR 'FRIENDSHIP STATUS' (IF YOU CAN STILL CALL IT THAT) IS SET ON NEUTRAL... ITS LIKE YAH WE KNOW WE EXIST BUT I DON'T RELLY GIVE A DAMN NOWADAYS, YOU KNOW, ALL THOSE STUFF, WHEN MY FRIENDS HANG OUT WITH HER, I WOULD JUST LIKE JOKE A LITTLE, BUT NO PERSONAL STUFF. I'M SHELVING MY ,EMORIES WITH HER, I CAN'T BELIEVE I COULD GO THROUGH IT, I MEAM SHE'S LIKE MY 'BEST FRIEND', BUT 'IGNORIONG' HER FOR LIKE TWO WEEKS, I CAnt believe i'm completely over with her..... ITS LIKE, I'M SO PROUD OF MYSELF THAT I DON'T HAVE TO WORRY ABOUT BEING ANGRY WITH HER. I KNOW I SAID THAT WE ARE ALL 'SPIRITUAL SIBLINGS' (I JUST ANYHOW ASSUME THAT COZ SINCE YOU KNOW THE BOTH OF US I THINK YOU'RE FROM CHURCH) THAT WE SHOULD HELP EACH OTHER WHEN ONE OF US FALLS, BUT ITS DIFFERENT WITH HER (AND HER POSEY), NO MATTER HOW MUCH YOU TELL THEM THAT THIS,THAT,ETC. THINGS THEY'REDOING ARE WRONG, THEY STILL KEEP ON DOING THOSE THINGS.... NO USE TELLING THEM.... JUSY STAY AWAY FROM THEM SO I WON'T BE INFLUENCED, JUST LIKE WHAT MY PARENTS SAY. PRETTY WEIRD THAT PARENTS KNOW MORE ABOUT YOUR FRIENDS THAN YOU KNOW ABOUT THEM. ANYWAYS, I'M NOT TAKING SIDES. JUST STATING WHAT ARE MY VIEWS. JUST TAKE MY ADVISE.... KEEP IT TO YOURSELF, WHATEVER THAT IS THAT YOU WANNA TELL HER) OR POST IT IN YOUR BLOG, JUST LIKE WHAT I DO.... ALTHOUGH OBVIOUSLY SHE KNOWS 'M TALKING 'BOUT HER.... WE JUST PRETEND I NEVER POSTED IT IN MY BLOG, AND SHE [RETENDS SHE NEVER READ IT, OR SHE REALLY DIDN'T READ IT, BUT SHE MUST HAVE. WHEN WE'RE TALKING, WE NEVER REALLY TALKED ABOUT THIS ISSUE... WE HARDLY TALK, JUST GREET, OR I JUST TALK TO HER BUT FOR THE SAKE OF THE 'SISTERS' WHO MIGHT MAKE A BIG DEAL ABOUT OUR 'IGNORANCE' FOR EACH OTHER. BUT MY MOM IS PROBABLY HAPPY I'M STAYING AWAY FROM THE GANG.... I'M KINDA HAPPY TOO, IT JUST SHOWS WHAT KIND OF AN IDIOT I WAS.... I BET MY MOM WOULD SMILE WHEN SHE READS THIS, SHE WOULD PROBABLY SAY, "FINALLY GOD IS TALKING SOME SENSE INTO HER". (NO SARCASM INTNDED) ANYWAY, I'M TALKING TOO MUCH "BULL CRAP" (SORRY DIDN'T REALLY MEANT THAT)... THOSE WORDS I LERNT AT SCHOOL IS REALLY GETTING INTO MY HEAD, THOSE PEOPLE REALLY SHOULDN'T HAVE 'CURSED' ME WITH THOSE WORDS, I MIGHT END UP 'CURSING' THEM BACK... I'M SORRY..... I'M SORRY I'M BECOMING WORLDLY WITH THOSE WORDS.... THAT'S BCOZ I COULD SOMETYMS HEAR IT IN 'HOLY' PLACES.... (TO MYSELF) OK ENOUGH TALKING REALLY.... Amateur Journalist left the world of darkness on 10:33 AM Wednesday, August 26, 2009
I would like to dedicate this song to Sis. Barbara who had just passed away last Friday DUE TO CANCER:
And to Pastor Willoughby.... and The Willoughby FamilY.... This is A song which I think the title is "Stand Up". WHICH WAS SUNG BY ALL INTERNATIONALLY FAMOUS SINGERS (THOUGH I DUNNOE SOME OF THEM). THEY SANG IT FOR A CAMPAIGN CALLED STANDUP2CANCER AT THE FASHION ROCKS 2009.... PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE MULTIPLIED BY 10000000000000INFINITY.......I BEG YOU TO WATCH.... IT INCLUDES SINGER LIKE mARIAH... bEYONCE........ mARY J. bLIGE... rIHANNA... fERGIE... sHERYL cROW... mELISSA eTHERIDGE... nATASHA bEDDINGFIELD... mILET cYRUS (SHES ONLY 16 OR 17 BUT I DUNNOE Y SHE SANG THERE AND I KINDA DISLIKE HER VOICE THERE).... lEONA lEWIS... cARRIE uNDERWOOD... kEYSHIA cOLE... lEANN rIMES... aSHANTI... cIARA... JUST BCOZ U HATE THEM, DOESNT MEAN THIS SONG IS RUBBISH... IT IS A SONG ABOUT STANDING UP TO CANCER... BUT IT COULD ALSO BE A SONG FOR STANDING UP IN LIFE NO MATTER WHAT THE SITUATION IS... I CRIED A LOT OF TIMES WHEN I KEPT ON WATCHING IT...I KNOW...I JUST GOT CARRIED AWAY BY MY EMOTIONS...I ALSO DUNNOE WHY I CRIED... MAYBE BCOZ I COULD IMAGINE THEM SINGING IT FOR... SIS BARBARA... WHO IS A GREAT PERSON AND INSPIRATION AND ROLE MODEL AND SIS/MOTHER.... PLEASE WATCH...THIS IS THE LINK... http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=c1h52vnsQ00&feature=fvst PS: THE BEGINNING IS A MICHAEL JACKSON SONG BUT ITS ONLY ABOUT 5 SECS. IF U WANT ALL THE SINGERS NAME...IT IS AT THE INFO BOX.... tHIS IS THE LYRICS TO THE SONG:(IT MIGHT NOT BE ACURATE) (EVERYTHING WILL BE ALRIGHT, YEAH) tHE HEART IS STRONGER THAN YOU THINK lIKE IT COULD GO THROUGH ANYTHING eVEN WHEN YOU THINK YOU IT CAN'T iT FINDS A WAY TO STILL PUSH ON, THOUGH.... sOMETIMES YOU WANT TO RUN AWAY aIN'T GOT THE PATIENCE FOR THE PAIN aND IF YOU DON'T BELIEVE IT lOOK INTO YOUR HEART THE BEAT GOES ON...OH i'M TELLING YOU tHINGS GET BETTER THROUGH WHATEVER iF YOU FALL, dUST IT UP, dON'T LET UP dON'T YOU KNOW YOU CAN GO BE YOUR OWN MIRACLE...................................... yOU NEED TO KNOW......................... iF THE MIND KEEPS THINKING YOU'VE HAD ENOUGH bUT THE HEART KEEPS TELLING YOU JUST DON'T GIVE UP wHO ARE WE TO BE QUESTIONING wONDERING wHAT IS WHAT dON'T GIVE UP.............. tHROUGH IT ALL JUST STAND UP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! iT'S LIKE WE ALL HAVE BETTER DAYS pROBLEMS GETTING ALL UP IN YOUR FACE jUST BECAUSE YOU GO THROUGH IT dON'T MEAN YOU GOTTA TAKE CONTROL..............NO...................... yOU AIN'T GOTTA FIND NO HIDING PLACE bECAUSE THE HEART CAN BEAT THE HATE dON'T WANNA LET YOUR MIND KEEP PLAYING YOU aND SAYING YOU CAN'T GO ON............................. i'M TELLING YOU tHINGS GET BETTER tHROUGH wHATEVER wHEN YOU FALL, dUST IT OFF, dONT LET UP dON'T YOU KNOW YOU CAN GO BE YOUR OWN MIRACLE..................................................................... YOU NEED TO KNOW............................. iF THE MIND KEEPS THINKING YOU'VE HAD ENOUGH bUT THE HEART KEEPS TELLING YOU DON'T GIVE UP wHO ARE WE TO BE QUESTIONING, wONDERING wHAT IS WHAT.... dON'T GIVE UP.... tHROUGH IT ALL JUST STAND UP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! yOU DON'T GOTTA BE A PRISONER IN YOUR MIND....................... iF YOU FALL, dUST IT OFF.... yOU CAN LIVE YOUR LIFE... yEAH! lET YOUR HEART BE YOUR GUIDE... yEAH...yEAH...yEAH! aND YOU WILL KNOW YOU ARE GOOD, iF YOU TRUST IN THE GOOD... eVERYTHING WILL BE ALRIGHT, YEAH! lIGHT UP THE DARK, iF YOU'LL FOLLOW YOUR HEART... aND IT WILL GET BETTER... tHROUGH WHATEVER...... iF THE MIND KEEPS THINKING YOU'VE HAD ENOUGH.... bUT THE HEART KEEPS TELLING YOU JUST DON'T GIVE UP.............. wHO ARE WE TO BE QUESTIONING, wONDERING, wHAT IS WHAT................. dON'T GIVE UP........................ tHROUGH IT ALL JUST STAND UP.................... iF THE MIND KEEPS THINKING YOU'VE HAD ENOUGH.... bUT THE HEART KEEPS TELLING YOU JUST DON'T GIVE UP.............. wHO ARE WE TO BE QUESTIONING, wONDERING, wHAT IS WHAT................. dON'T GIVE UP........................ tHROUGH IT ALL JUST STAND UP.................... yOU GOT IT IN YOU, FIND IT WITHIN.... yOU GOT IT IN YOU, FIND IT WITHIN....NOW...... yOU GOT IT IN YOU, FIND IT WITHIN.... yOU GOT IT IN YOU, FIND IT WITHIN....NOW...... yOU GOT IT IN YOU, FIND IT WITHIN.... yOU GOT IT IN YOU, FIND IT WITHIN....NOW...... fIND IT WITHIN YOU.... fIND IT WITHIN.............. tHROUGH IT ALL JUST STAND UP !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! -THANK YOU- Amateur Journalist left the world of darkness on 8:46 PM Monday, August 24, 2009
MY LIFE PRACTICALLY IS SOMETHING YOU COULD LOVE LIVING AND HATE HAVING. U DUN GEDDIT DO U? IT MEANS U LOVE TO LIVE IT BUT U HATE TO HAVE IT...NOW U GEDDIT? U STILL DON'T? WELL 4GET IT...BUT 4 ME, I STILL FEEL THE SAME WAY...
OK SO YESTERDAY NIGHT, OR RATHER LAST NIGHT, I WAS LIKE COVERING MY EARS WITHOUT USING MY HANDS WITHOUT BEING SEEN BY HiM...HE WAS PRACTICALLY ANGRY, INFURIATED, EXPLODING...AND I WAS SAYING TO MYSELF IN MY MIND,"BLAH,BLAH, BLAH...DUN LISTEN TO HiM.YOU'RE DOING FINE, JOIE. YOU'RE IMPROVING. NOTHING'S WRONG WITH YOU. YOU HAVE GOTTEN THIS FAR, U STILL HAVE MUCH MORE TO GO BUT U WILL GET THERE." BUT INSIDE I KNEW EVERYTHING WAS NOT FINE. I KNEW I'M A TOTAL SUCKER. I KNEW I'M USELESS TO THEM, ESPECIALLY TO HiM. AFTER THAT, ShE WENT DOWN THE STAIRS TO MY STUDY AREA AND STARTED LOOKING FOR iT. I TOLD HER," JUS GO BACK UP. HE'S WAITING FOR YOU. DON'T KEEP HIM WAITING. I HATE IT WHEN HE'S ANGRY." (THEN TO MYSELF)HE'S UGLY WHEN HE'S ANGRY. AFTER HEARING WHAT I SAID, SHE PULLED ME BY THE EAR, GLARED AT ME WITH BLOOD-SHOT EYES (FROM CRYING? I DUN REALLY KNOW) AND SAID, "YOU HAVE CAUSED A LOT OF TROUBLE AND YOU INCLUDED ME SO I WANT TO GET OUT OF THIS MESS AND I DUN CARE WHAT YOU DO. YOU ARE TOO USELESS NOW TO HELP ME". OF COURSE I DIDN'T CRY. I ONLY CRY WHEN I'M ANGRY AND MY TEARS ARE LIKE THE LAVA. ITS LIKE MY AGGRESIVENESS ALWAYS CAME OUT AS TEARS BCOZ I AM IN CONTROL OF MYSELF BUT NOT MY EMOTIONS. I'M IN CONTROL OF MY BODY BUT NEVER MY EMOTIONS. WITH CLENCHED FISTS, I PULLED AWAY FROM HER. I'M SCARED. SCARED OF THE WORDS THAT ALWAYS REACHES MY EARS. I DIDN'T ALWAYS WANT TO BELIEVE IT. I NEVER DID BELIEVE IT. AT LEAST I TRY NOT TO. I ALWAYS TOLD MYSELF, " YOU ARE STILL PART OF THEM DESPITE OF WHAT THEY SAY". WHEN IT IS SOMETHING ABOUT FAMILY TREE COMPLICATIONS I WOULD SAY TO MYSELF, "YOU ARE STILL PART OF THEM, PART OF THEIR LIFE, PART OF THEIR FAMILY. NO MATTER HOW DIFFERENT WE THREE ARE, WE ARE STILL THE SAME BLOOD." WHEN IT COMES TO DEATH OF PEOPLE I KNOW, I WOULD SAY, "ITS OK. THEY'RE SAFE." BUT THE TEARS NOT COME DOWN. PS: THIS WAS TYPED ON SUN. NYT. BUT ONLY PUBLISHED NOW. Amateur Journalist left the world of darkness on 7:47 PM Saturday, August 22, 2009
Long time ago,blah,blah,blah.............................................................................
...................................................................................................................................... ....................................................................................................................................... ....................................................................................................................................... ..................................................................................................................................... ...................................................................................................................................... SO NOW I AM FREE OF THE TWO BONDAGES WHICH I HELD ME CAPTIVE FOR A LONG PERIOD OF TIME. THE BONDAGE WHERE THIS PERSON THOUGHT U WERE THE ONLY PERSON WHO COULD UNDERSTAND THEM AND THAT U WERE THEIR BEST FRIEND... THE FIRST PERSON: WELL THE FIRST PERSON WAS SOMEONE WHOM I GREW UP WITH. SOM1 WHOM I WAS REALLY CLOSE TOO. THERE WAS EVEN A PERIOD OF TIME THAT WE WERE CLOSER THAN SISTERS: WE TOLD EACH OTHER WHICH PART IN LIFE WE WERE GOOD AT, WHICH PART OF OUR PERSONALITY/ ATTITUDE WE COULD IMPROVE UPON, ETC. WITHOUT HURTING EACH OTHER'S FEELINGS.... BUT NOW....................................................................................... OUR FRIENDSHIP IS DRIER THAN THE DESSERT IT TURNED INTO A BRITTLE, BURNT CRISP (NOT THE CRISP AS IN CHIPS) ITS JUST SOOO SAD IT WAS ALL BCOZ....................................................................... SHE LIED SHE COVETED MY TRUST IN HER WHEN I TRUSTED HER, SHE BROKE IT SHE PROMISED ME, SHE BROKE IT SHE TRUSTED IN ME, SHE BROKE IT I TRUSTED HER ONCE AGAIN, SHE BROKE IT...............................AGAIN... I TRUSTED HER ONCE MORE, SHE BROKE IT...............................AGAIN... AND AGAIN............................................AND AGAIN.................................AND AGAIN.....................................................AND AGAIN........................................................................................................................................ BUT UNTIL WHEN? UNTIL WHEN WOULD SHE STOP BREAKING MY TRUST IN HER OVER AND OVER? I THOUGHT OUR FRIENDSHIP WAS STRONG......................................................... PLATINUM STRONG........................................................................................................................ MIXED WITH DIAMONDS............................................................................................................... SOLID AS SOLID COULD BE........................................................................................................... WITH THE SPRINKLE OF GOD'S LOVE AND MERCY.............................................................. BCOZ DESPITE THE NUMBER OF TIMES I TRUSTED HER AND SHE BROKE IT, SHE ALWAYS REGAINS MY TRUST NO MATTER HOW MUCH TROUBLE SHE HAD GOTTEN ME INTO................................................................................................................................................... UNTIL NOW............................................................................................................................................. IT VANISHED! I FORGIVE HER OF COURSE............................................................................................................. BUT I HAD MADE THE DECISION TO GO NEUTRAL WITH MY REALTIONSHIP TO HER... SO THAT I WON'T LOOK LIKE AN IDIOT........................................................................................... SHE'S PROBABLY MOCKING ME NOW...........................OR NOT...................................................... SHE'S PROBABLY THINKING WHAT SHE'S DONE TO ME.............................................................. I HAVE NO MERE MORTAL I COULD TRUST NOW......................................................................... AS MUCH AS I HAD TRUSTED HER...................................................................................................... I'M SORRY I HAVE TO DO THIS TO YOU......................................................................................... BUT AS MUCH AS I HAD TRUSTED YOU AND LOVED YOU AS A FRIEND IN THE PAST..... I REALIZED THAT DESTINY IS CALLING US TO SEPARATE PATHS....................................... A PATH THAT WOULD LEAD US, WORLDS APART....................................................................... NOTHING IN COMMON REALLY...............EXCEPT WE ARE SOO CLOSE IN REALITY... I REALISED THAT IT IS TIME TO BREAK FREE OF THE BONDAGE....................................... TO BREAK LOSE OUT OF CAPTIVITY............................................................................................. SINCE NONE OF US WANTED TO DISINGRATE FROM OUR PAST, I FIGURED OUT THAT I SHOULD BE THE ONE TO START.................................................................................................... THE FIRST ONE TO LET GO FROM YOU, FROM YOUR HANDS............................................... AND LET THE WIND OF DESTINY BLOW ME AWAY AND GUIDE ME AS FAR AWAY FROM YOU AS POSSIBLE.................................................................................................................................... AS I FALL DOWN THE CLIFF AND LAND GENTLY TO MY UNKNOWN DESTINATION....... AND TO NEVER LOOK UP.........................................................................TO YOU.............................. AGAIN......................................................................................................................................................... THE SECOND PERSON: WE HAVE NOT MUCH OF A HISTORY. EXCEPT WE GOT ALONG QUITE WELL THE FIRST TIME WE MET. JUST THE FIRST DAY WE FOUNF OUT ONE REAL FACT: WE HAVE TOO MUCH IN COMMON. AS DAYS GREW BY, WE LEARN MORE AND MORE OF EACH OTHER. WE GREW MORE AWARE OF ANOTHER FACT: WE SHOULD STAY AWAY FROM EACH OTHER BCOZ OF OUR SAME CHARACTERISTICS... BCOZ OF THE TWO OF US, ONLY ONE SHOULD LEAD.................................................................... BUT WE ARE NOT SURE WHO, SO WE SHOULD OPPOSE EACH OTHER, CHALLENGE EACH OTHER, TO FIND OUT WHO........................................................................................................ BUT WE BOTH CONCLUDED IN OUR MINDS THAT WHOEVER IT IS........................................ THE LOSING PARTY WOULD NOT BE HAPPY................................................................................ WELL, I'M NOT REALLY FOND OF HER......SHE'S KIND OF IRRITATING REALLY........................................................................ SHE'S THE KIND OF GIRL WHO WOULD SAY THAT YOU ARE SO TALKATIVE WHEN MOST OF THE TIME SHE IS THE ONE TALKING..................................................... THE KIND WHOM YOU ARGUE WITH AND NO MATTER HOW GOOD YOU ARE AT ARGUING, SHE STILL WON'T GET IT THAT YOU HAD ALREADY WON THE ARGUMENT........ THE KIND OF PERSON WHO THINKS SHE KNOWS MORE THAN ANYONE ELSE AROUND HER......EVEN TEACHERS....................................................................................................................... SHE ALWAYS FOLLOW ME WHEN WE'RE AT THE SAME PLACE............................................... SHE ALWAYS EMPHASIZE ON YOU THAT SHE MINUS YOU SHE'S BETTER OFF.....BUT ONCE YOU DISAPPEAR, SHE'S THE GIRL WHOM EVERYBODY HATES.................... THE ONLY GIRL WITHOUT A PAIR......................................WITHOUT A BEST BUD.................. SHE'S ALSO THE KIND OF PERSON WHOM PEOPLE JUST MET AND WOULD INSTANTLY AVOID BCOZ OF HER OPENING CONVERSATIONS JUST AFTER INTRODUCING HERSELF............................................................................................................................................ WELL, I'M SORT OF LIKE HER PAIR ACTUALLY........................................ PPL THOUGHT I'M BEST FRIENDS WITH HER........................................................................ BUT NO................................................................................................................................................. I JUST PAIR WITH HER BCOZ I DUN HAVE A PARTICULAR BEST FRIEND....................... I MEAN I HAVE BUT I HAVE DIFFERENT BEST FRIENDS IN DIFFERENT ASPECTS....... BUT SHE?...................................................NOPE...................NOT A SINGLE ONE.......................... I MEAN NONE THAT I KNOW OF..................................................................................................... I'M NOT BRAGGING............................COZ SERIOUSLY I'M A GENERAL GENDER KIND OF PERSON...........IT MEANS I HAVE BEST FRIEND GIRLS AND BOYS..............BAD AND GOOD...............EMOTIONAL AND INSENSITIVE......................ETC................................... BUT NOW I DUN CARE IF HER REPUTATION IS RUINED.................................... BCOZ IT WOULDN'T HAVE HAPPENED IF: SHE DID SOMETHING ABOUT SOMETHING SHE IS SUPPOSED TO DO! SHE SHOULDN'T HAVE DRAWN CONCLUSIONS! SHE SHOULD HAVE APOLOGIZED SINCERELY! SHE sHOULDN'T HAVE BEEN PROUD ESPECIALLY ABOUT SOMETHING SHE DIDN'T DO! -END- NOTICE: THIS CONCLUSIONS OR GENERALISATIONS I TYPED ARE NOT OF MY OWN OPINION ONLY. SEVERAL PEOPLE RELATED TO THE TWO AFOREMENTIONED PEOPLE WERE INTERVIEWED AND ASKED OF THEIR OWN OPINIONS. OPINIONS AND GENERALISATIONS WERE NOT OF PERSONAL EMOTIONS BUT OF A THIRD PERSON'S POINT OF VIEW THAT IS OUT OF THE CIRCLE OF THE SUBJECTS. Amateur Journalist left the world of darkness on 8:37 PM
Yo ppl remember yesterday, Friday, was the deadline of art project colouring masterpiece and had to be handed in as a part of CA marks. Well, you all (only those who gave me their paper to be finished) have oral then you all gave me your unfinished, half finished, undone art pieces to pass up to Ms Doll (i dunnoe whats the spelling, aka: Ms Sim) and u all ask me to finish colouring it. Well I did but some of the ppl's background were not coloured bcoz i need to rush to the doctor. So I'm just reminding u guys that u all owe me one. ( i dunnoe how u all gonna repay me but u still owe me).
There are also some ppl who helped me but they did voluntary work so all the credit goes to me but u still owe them yur appreciation and thanks. Thanks To: Rasia Siti Addin Kartika Afiqah and those others who helped.....(im sorry i 4got who u all were).....but tnx! Amateur Journalist left the world of darkness on 8:09 PM Sunday, August 16, 2009
THE PHOTOS:
.jpg) YAH I KNOW I LOOK FUNNY! DUN ASK WAT I WISH FOR. BUT IT IS PROBABLY SOMETHING BIG ( 2 BE HONEST, I ALSO DUN KNOW WHAT I WISHED FOR), BCOZ I BLOWED VERY HARD  THE GIRLS...ALWAYS WILLING AND EAGER TO TAKE PICTURES. I DIDN'T WANT TO JOIN BCOZ...I TOOK THE PICTURE...ALMOST EVERY B-DAY PPL HAVE APICTURE OF ME...BUT IN THE END I'M THE 1 WHO DUN HAVE ANY...  GAVIN(AKA: EMPEROR TANNAKA) WAVING, OR MAYBE IT MEANS, "TALK TO THE HAND"...  KENNETH AND ZI XUAN...SO BUSY TOUCHING THE TABLES, THAT THEY DIDN'T NOTICE I TOOK PICTURE...TOUCH 4 WAT?  ALL OF THEM EATING THE APPETISER...SO FAST FINISH ALREADY! ZI XUAN BLOCKING BENEDICT, GAVIN BLOCKING FU YU AND KENNETH...THE GIRLS BUSY GOSSIPING...I THINK...  THE BOYZ...ON INSTANT 'TURN-AWAY' MODE WHEN THEY SAW CAMERA...XCEPT FOR FU YU, SO BUSY PLAYING PSP, AND KENNETH, DUNNOE DOING WHAT...  THEM AGAIN, EATING MAIN COURSE: PIZZA! SO SAD LEH, CANNOT SEE THE OTHER PIZZAS...THEY SO FAST EAT...TOO BAD FOR GAVIN BCOZ BENEDICT POUR TOO MUCH CHEESE UNTIL IT WAS 0.5 CM THICK ON HIS PIZZA...LOL!  ITS TIME TO ORDER...AGAIN!xD Dessert, Pizza or Wat? MAKE UP YOUR MINDS, PPL!  TADA!:THE CAKE! YUM,YUM! I 4GOT HOW TO CUT ALREADY SO THEY CUT 4 ME...HAHA!  KENNETH AND ZI XUAN LISTENING TO THE GIRLS, DUNNOE WHAT THEY TALKING ABOUT...PROBABALY SOMETHING BIG BCOZ ZI XUAN WAS SOO WIDE-EYED...IT WASN'T THAT WIDE WHEN I SHOWED HIM THE BILL... JK...  HAI YA*SIGH* FU YU STILL BUSY WITH HIS PSP...MUST BE AN INTERESTING GAME BCOZ HE QUICKLY ATE HIS PIZZAS...  GAVIN AND BENEDICT...GAVIN LISTENING TO BENEDICT ABOUT SOME "SHIT JOKES" WHILE EATING CHOCOLATE MOUSSE(OR MOUSE, WHATEVER U CALL THAT)...IT WOULD HAVE BEEN YUMMY!...IF BENEDICT DIDN'T TOLD ME THE JOKE!...LOL...  ITS BENEDICTS TIME TO WAVE...  ADDIN...HELPING ME CUT THE CAKE...  KENNETH AND ZI XUAN...ZI XUAN DIDN'T HAVE TIME TO TURN AWAY SO HE GRABBED A DRINK...LUCKILY HE DIDN'T POUR IT ON HIMSELF...L8TER ON, SHI MIN SAID, "HEY WE ALL GOT SALIVA ALL OVER!" BCOZ WE ALL GOT MIXED-UP WITH OUR DRINKS WHILE TAKING PICTURE...  AFTER TIME ZONE, WE ATE, AFTER EATING, ITS TIME ZONE TIME! AGAIN... THE BOYS PLAYING...FU YU V.S. KENNETH...THE GIRLS BUSY TAKING PICTURE AT "SENSE-Q", OR WHATEVER U CALL THAT...I DIDN'T WANT TO JOIN BCOZ WE JUST TOOK PICTURES AT THE RESTAURANT...  THEY ALL STILL BUSY PLAYING. THE GIRLS STILL TAKING PICTURE...NO WONDER THEY ALL GOT IRRITATED BY ME WHEN I REFUSE 2 TAKE PICTURES WITH THEM...  LET'S MOVE ON TO BASKETBALL...HAIYO! GAVIN Y U LOST? U IN BASKETBALL SOME MORE...THEN U STILL BLAME ME?...;p MY B-DAY IS ACTUALLY TODAY (16TH AUGUST, THOUGH IT IS ONLY 2 AM). BUT I CELEBRATED IT YESTERDAY (15TH AUGUST 4 PM) WITH MY CLOSE CLASSMATE FRIENDS AT PASTAMANIA. IT'S KINDA COOL 4 ME BCOZ IT IS MY FIRST TYM TO CELEBRATE MY B-DAY OUTSIDE WITH MY FRIENDS AND TREAT THEM AT A RESTAURANT (IN A "RESERVED AREA"/"VIP AREA" THOUGH I'M NOT REALLY THE 1 WHO RESERVED IT FOR MYSELF) SINCE I WAS 2 OR 3 YEARS OLD I THINK. I CELEBRATED IT TODAY BCOZ LAST SUNDAY WAS MY OFFICIAL B-DAY PARTY TREATING FOR MY FRIENDS OUTSIDE THE SCHOOL AT CHURCH DURING B-DAY CELEBRATION (SINCE MOST OF MY "NON-SCHOOL" FRIENDS WERE CHURCHMATES), MY MOM WAS THE ONE WHO DID THE FOOD FOR THE MONTHLY B-DAY CELBRATION FOR THE AUGUST CELEBRANTS LAST SUNDAY. AND YESTERDAY MOST OF MY "NON-SCHOOL" FRIENDS PARTICIPATED IN AN AMAZING RACE THINGY OR SOMETHING, WHATEVER YOU CALL THAT. I'M SUPPOSED TO JOIN TOO BUT THEY NOTIFIED ME JUST AFTER I HAD MADE THE FINAL ARRANGEMENT CONFIRMATION. SATURDAY ALSO WAS THE DAY WHEN MOST OF MY CLOSE CLASSMATE FRIENDS WERE FREE... THANK YOU GUYS (AND GALS IF THAT IS WHAT YOU WANT TO BE CALLED) FOR COMING TO MY PARTY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! THANK YOU TO YOUR PARENTS FOR ALLOWING YOU TO COME! THANK YOU FOR THE DELICIOUS CAKE YOU ALL BOUGHT FOR ME, DESPITE ME INSISTING THAT YOU DON'T BUY THANK YOU FOR THE COOL GIFTS YOU ALL GAVE ME! (AND PLS DUN FEEL BAD IF U DIDN'T GET TO GIVE ME A GIFT, THE IMPORTANT PART WAS THAT YOU CAME:) FOR THOSE WHO DIDN'T GET TO COME, I KNOW IT WOULD BE MORE FUN IF U CAME, BUT I KNOW YOU ALL TRIED YOUR BEST TO COME. I UNDERSTAND. NO NEED TO GIVE ME GIFTS ANYWAY. I ALSO DIDN'T ASK FOR GIFTS FROM THOSE WHO COME BUT THEY STILL GAVE ME ANYWAY. Amateur Journalist left the world of darkness on 2:00 AM
Hey this is the latest song of Linkin Park. I have it in my hand phone. This song was featured in the movie, "Transformers 2: Revenge Of The Fallen".
This is the official Music Video. Link: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ysSxxIqKNN0 Amateur Journalist left the world of darkness on 1:55 AM
This is The Link to My Most Awaited Official Music Video:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=v0spRqEakCk Miley Looks soo funny at the first part but cute. Too bad Kevin Jonas has a very small part. Demi is still like a girl version of Joe Jonas when singing. And Joe is like a boy version of Demi Lovato when singing. Selena's part is soo short compared to the 2 girls but her voice is soo distinct to them. Overall I love the song. Its not about the 'romance' kind of love but more of like a song about making a difference. They are all sooo cool.... Amateur Journalist left the world of darkness on 1:07 AM Wednesday, August 12, 2009
Send It On
A word is just a word Until you mean what you say A Love isn't a love til you give it away we all got to give yeah something to give to make a change Send it on On and on Just one hand can heal another Be apart Reach your heart Just one spark stars a fire With one little action The chain reaction will never stop Make us Strong Shine a Light and Send it On Just smile and the world will smile along with you That small acts of love Then the one will become two If we take the chances To change circumstances Imagine all that we could do If we... Send it on On and on Just one hand can heal another Be apart Reach your heart Just one spark stars a fire With one little action The chain reaction will never stop Make us Strong Shine a Light and Send it On Send it on There's Power in all the choices we make so i'm starting now not a moment to wait a word just a word until you mean what you say a love isn't just a love until you give it away Send it on On and on Just one hand can heal another Be apart Reach your heart Just one spark stars a fire With one little action The chain reaction will never stop Make us Strong Shine a Light and Send it On Send it on Send it on On and on Just one hand can heal another Be apart Reach your heart Just one spark stars a fire With one little action The chain reaction will help things start Make us Strong Shine a Light and Send it On Shine a Light and Send it On Shine a Light and Send it On Amateur Journalist left the world of darkness on 5:34 PM Tuesday, August 11, 2009
Send It On
Song Link: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=L_7rjkvcj7g&feature=topvideos I tried to type the lyrics here but it ended as one chunk. The lyrics is on the video. Amateur Journalist left the world of darkness on 10:49 PM
Being an "over-achiever" is soooo .....*******!@#$%^&*. U might as well did badly in the first place so that they don't keep on pissing you off with MORE work. Shouldn't it be that they give u less work for doing well? but then again shouldn't they give u most of the work since you did well? I still prefer the first option. Uggh!
I didn't know my parents have soooo many jobs. And one of them is counselling. Nowadays a lot of people come to my house for counselling from my parents. And its so DAMN NOISY bcoz most of the time they come to our house angry and they would talk and shout about their problems like NON-STOP. And I need to study for HISTORY which my teacher expect me to be best at. If the ppl who went for counselling are couples, they would arrive ARGUING, somtyms fighting. TO ADD TO MY MISERY AND DEPRESSION, ONE OF MY FRIEND IS GETTING INTO TROUBLE. IT ALL STARTED BCOZ HE WAS ALWAYS INVITED TO A COUPLES HOUSE BY THEIR MAID. (don't think dirty!!!) BCOZ HIS PRIMARY SCHOOL WAS JUST BEHIND THE HOUSE. OF COURSE THE WIFE, KNOWS THE KID BUT NOT THE HUSBAND. THE HUSBAND IS SERIOUSLY PISSED BCOZ HE SAID THAT MY FRIEND (who is a boy btw) IS ALWAYS VISITING HIS HOUSE. I DUNNOE WHY HE IS PISSED (unless he is hiding something, I dun reali know him, only his son, who is also my friend, who is also my friend's friend). WHEN HE ASKED MY FRIEND WHY HE ALWAYS COME TO THE HOUSE, MY FRIEND SAID IT IS BCOZ THE MAID KEPT ON INVITING HIM THERE TO PLAY WITH THE SON. HE TOT MY FRIEND WAS LYING. SO HE WENT TO MY PARENTS' WITH HIS WIFE, WHO KEPT ON EXPLAINING TO HIM THAT SHE WAS NOT THE ONE WHO INVITED HIM. THEN HE SAID TO MY PARENTS THAT IF MY FRIEND WON'T TELL THE TRUTH HE WOULD TAKE A BELT AND HIT MY FRIEND. JUST FOR ONE STUPID REASON. IM SCARED! Amateur Journalist left the world of darkness on 10:22 PM Thursday, August 6, 2009
I hate how people just keeps on passing me big, huge responsibilities while others just sit around there waiting to be ordered what to do. And when you did boss them around, they would gossip about you and rumours starts revolving around that you think highly of yourself and blah, blah, blah. At first its is quite flattering but when you get etter and better at doing your duties, your burden adds on and on. When you, being a balance person, somehow managed all the responsibilities just right, when iT comes to BIG PROJECTS, MEETINGS, ETC. YOUR LIFE IS PISSINGLY FULL OF RESPONSIBILITIES THAT COULD DETERMINE YOUR FUTURE. IF YOU DON'T DO A SINGLE ONE OF THEM, YOUR MARKS STARTS TO FAIL EVEN YOU ONLY DIDN'T DO 1 OUT OF 5 PROJECTS. And it is pretty agitating how the bossier people just sits around and wait and be jealous and envious of the enormous responsibility entrusted to you while you go around rushing and taking care of all those stuff. When you finally have things going and all the preparations are ready, then will they be active again and boss your other members around and scold u for "not doing a good leadership job" and that "it is quite surprising how 'ordinary' members like them are more capable of these duties than you".
Amateur Journalist left the world of darkness on 9:50 PM Wednesday, August 5, 2009
I just want "write" what I feel. U don't have any responsibility of giving advice or whatsoever because this blog is the safest and most "sacred" (actually I meant secretest but I dun think there is such a word) diary I could get that nosy adults could poke their nose into. All you have to do if you want is to read it, shut IT and forget it. I won't discuss any of these matters openly "outside" the blog or after I post it.
I am seriously p***** off ryt now. Actually I'm not allowed to say any vulgarities but I'm just soooo.........urggh! Of course you won't know how I feel ryt now. Even if you told me that, "I know how u feel...." because I know you are lying! Its just lyk dat u know. It comes naturally to any mere mortal. Once, I was that kind of person who goes through what my friends were going through at that time. I know how it felt. And I would tell them that. But Somehow you could only say that when you are going through the very same thing at that time. Even though u went through that situation and felt the same way, later on you would forget it and u would just feel little sympathy for your friends. You are saying words of comforts but inside you are saying," Yah, whatever. Heck Care!" unless you love that person very much and not only the friend kind of love or when your friend died or whatever, then would u give a riverful of tears. I hate how I am such a secretive person but I CERTAINLY do not want to be an open person. I hate giving advice because although it is flattering if som1 asked for advice, it makes me feel as if I'm lying. I mean the way I handle things are different from the way ppl want to handle it and the way they want it to go. I can't give them advice, I just share my experiences but I certainly do not want them to follow me and it would turn out to be a bad decision and u would end up being responsible for it. I hate it how humans are so imperfect yet nboring if they WERE perfect. All these problems in life are a mixture of everything bad bcoz that is life what really is about aside from the good stuff or whatsoever. I admire ppl who died of old age and those who died of disease bcoz they didn't surrender along the way. I hate how problems would appear so suddenly and feel so suicidal but could melt so quickly but sometyms would take a lifetime to fade away. Seriously I should stop talking bull crap about all these stuff. So these is all...for now...but I kinda find this blogging thing boring...SERIOUSLY... at least it is better than BORING FRIENDSTER....I wonder y ppl still bother use that, FACEBOOK IS MUCH MORE FUN! Amateur Journalist left the world of darkness on 8:21 PM
The Thread
 Wish you could turn off the questions, turn off the voices, turn off all sound. Yearn to close out the ugliness, close out the filthiness, close out all the light. Long to cast away yesterday, cast away memory, cast away all jeopardy. Pray you could somehow stop the uncertainty, somehow stop the loathing, somehow stop the pain. Act on your impulse, swallow the bottle, cut a little deeper, put the gun to your chest. __________________________________________________________________ This part onwards is not part of the book....except the summary.... This book is not suggesting suicide or something coz its in fact about three people who attempted suicide but were not successful... This is the summary of the book: Sometimes you don't wake up but if you happen to, you know things will never be the same. Three lives, three different paths to the same destination: Aspen springs, a psychiatric hospital for thse who have attempted the ultimate act- suicide. Vanessa is beautiful and smart, but her secrets keep her answering the call of the blade. Tony, after suffering a painful childhood, can only find peace through pills. And Conner, outwardly, has the perfect life. But dig a little deeper and find a boy who is in constant battle with his parents, his life, himself. In one instant each of the young people decided enough was enough. They grabbed the blade, the bottle, the gun- and tried to end it all. Now they have a second chance, and just maybe, with each other's help, they can find their way to a better life- but only if they're strong and can fight the demons that brought them here in the first place. Amateur Journalist left the world of darkness on 4:00 PM  Hey Guys! I'm currently reading A New York Times bestseller, "Impulse", written by Ellen Hopkins. Umm... I'm not really familiar with her books and I think so far this is the first time I'm gonna read a book written by her but I'm really hooked to it right now! I mean I'm not a Twilight Fan or something, not even a fan of books about romance but I think this book is still great! I don't know why but the book is written in poem form (I think) bcoz each whole page as in back-to-back is written line by line. I don't really know how to explain it but I'll give you an example. Amateur Journalist left the world of darkness on 3:50 PM Monday, August 3, 2009
I don't get it why sometimes parents don't want the best for their children. Its so weird!!! It is also depressing when all the burden of your family is put on you. Like me! I'm the only child and if I fail my studies, how can I have a job that pays enough to support my parents and me. Oh and that is why I don't want to get married. Live life to the fullest? How? I don't get it. Its more like: Live life to the fullest by living your life through its hardest. My parents want me to go to a good Secondary School but I didn't want to bcoz it would be depressing. So I closed the doors to the oppurtunities of getting in those top schools. But now I'm in a normal school, I think its more depressing coz your living life every day seeing your parents wishing u had gone to a good school and looking at you hoping hopelessly for u to do well in studies coz u carry their 2nd future. You might as well feel you are useless! Its not their fault anyway, if only I had think through my decisions wisely. HECK CARE IF MY FRIENDS THINK I'M NERDY, GEEKY PROUD AND THINKS HIGHLY OF MYSELF. COZ IF THEY REALLY ARE MY FRIENDS, THEY WOULD WANT THE BEST FOR ME....
Amateur Journalist left the world of darkness on 10:26 PM Monday, July 27, 2009
Hey! Have you ever participated in any wedding ceremony or any of that kind? And u feel its kind of boring during rehearsals because all you have to do is walk down the aisle while a boring song is played. Don't get me wrong, I know how much important is the ceremony and sometimes the song is meaningful but its still just boring after hearing it alot of times during rehearsals. I was thinkin this is cool because the couple have a wild imagination and decided to "UN-BORING" their wedding. Haha...I also don't know the song but I like their unique wedding...
http://sg.video.yahoo.com/watch/5608441/14720203 If the link above won't work...well I think u could type "Not your typical weddding" in Youtube or Yahoo or watever, but I'm not sure. Don't worry this has no virus or whatsoever.... I didn't made the video so all credits go to Yahoo and the poster of the video.... Amateur Journalist left the world of darkness on 5:20 PM Monday, May 18, 2009
A- A Series Of Unfortunate Events Book Series
B- Bass C- Car (one-seater), Cluedo Board game, Cat pet, Common place Book (the one like the Baudelaires or the Quagmires), Camera (the one used by photographers and Journliasts), College ( in Cambridge, Oxford, Harvard, etc. Hey, who said u can't dream?) D- Drum Set, Dog pet (preferably a labrador/sheep dog/white Siberian Husky), Drivers Licence E- Electric Guitar F- G- Guitar(the normal one), GPS, Green Screen H- Horse (preferably a stallion), Holographic Handphone (It hasn't been invented yet but who knows. I might invent that myself. Hehe...) I- Injected Lite Foam Technology Sneakers/ Sport Shoes J- Journalism Permit K- Kitten L- Library ( My very own.Hahax...) M- Monopoly Board Game, Mini Laptop, Motorcycle N- Nintendo Wii ( A new one.), Nintendo Wii Board (a new one also), New modified i-Phone (its only released in the US but it will come to Singapore I think on August, well I'm not sure... O- P- Projector Q- R- Roller Blades, Recording Studio (For fun...) S- Skate Board T- The Game Of Life Game board U- V- Videocam (I really need the one with a microphone on its side, u know those that journalists use everytime they need to do some on-the-spot or emergency reporting or broadcasting and they dun have time to bring in the whole "video crew". I soo need it 4 my website's webshow and to record on-the-spot music videos bcoz even normal expensive videocams are quite not up to standard on audio or they are their definition is too bright.) W- Writing License (or whatever u call that. As long as it allows me to publish my stories/novels) X- XO Laptop (only available in developing countries), XBox 360 Nano-technology (this one is also new and I'm not sure if its released yet but I know that they already showed it in the US in one conference or something. This is not the current XBox 360 bcoz this one doesn't need a controller, it has a camera motion detector.) I know u all wouldn't buy me these stuff but who knows....I just posted it for fun....but I really, really want these stuff... Amateur Journalist left the world of darkness on 11:14 AM Thursday, April 2, 2009
So, I was working quietly with my geography skills book while my friend in front chatter with the teacher of how she hates her "partener" (it means the person beside her)...when suddenly the teacher said that me and my friend in front should swap places. I said no... "Ben 10" is one of the top10 annoying, irritating and irrational? people on the class. So this is what happened...my 4 nightmares turned into 5. You'll get what I mean , just look below. This is our zoomed in seating arrangement.
Previous: x G-my Fren x G-Me! x x After the swap: x x x G-I was already angry x x The rest are annoying, irritating boys. Ughh! See what I mean? Honestly, I'm surrounded. The worst part is we need to do pair work but instead we did group work and Why? Bcoz they kept on snatching my book and looking at it...then they ask and ask and ask...then they sang a very annoying song which added to their 1high pitched voice,3 out of tune voice and one babbling echoey voice...Never mind...you dun care ryt? Amateur Journalist left the world of darkness on 6:35 PM Wednesday, April 1, 2009
Ok... I'm sooo infuriated and confused...or maybe mostly confused... One of my closest friends...the one whom I always stick with no matter how many big fights we had...I want to hate her...but everytime I do...here she comes again in har most symphathetic voice in an innocent tone saying, " What happened to you? Gosh, you look so angry. Tell me what happened"...oh great! you might as well say, " I'm here for you everytime someone, which is mostly me!, always make you feel bad ". This could be so cruel, so I would just say, "Little miss queen bee and her wannabe, got into my head again"...And she would go all over her routine again...
1st: A scowl/ a frown/ a pout...anything to make me think that she cares...she does...but she cares more about the queen bee...that's the prob. 2nd: An insult to the person...to make me feel she is on my side 3rd: A "comforting" moment with me...to assure me she would not leave me After these basic steps she would somehow, sneak away, unknown to me. The moment I realise she wasn't there... bam!...she's spotted..."hahahahahahaha!" laughing with the queen bee, totally forgetting me... Amateur Journalist left the world of darkness on 6:13 PM Monday, March 30, 2009
Um, you have'nt heard of me before? Just joking. I mean who would have. ok enough of nonsense blah,blah,blah... Uh,yeah, its depends on how you look at me, but I'll just tell you what I think...
Firstly, I lurve, luv, love the one bestest friend I've ever had...He's superb...His name starts with the same letter as mine: J...You might have encountered him before when he knocks at your door. You might have accepted Him or you might have rejected Him. Anyways, He still loves you and me too, duh? Secondly, I'm sooo into... - books. I might as well jump into one of it, specially my fav. -music. Its almost like my life. I like editing songs and writing short ones. - journalism and writing stuff, etc. Its soo outgoing. You can write about just anything you want to write about. Yah! Oh one of the "writing stuff" I write are poems, stories, ideas, phrases, its almost like art: Expressing yur inner thoughts and comparing it to something else. Hobbies: -acting -singing - playing -studying -reading -internet-ing -blah,blah blah Current interest: -drawing weird stuff -scribbling -talking Yah...I think that's all...Bye! Oh and do come back... Amateur Journalist left the world of darkness on 5:20 PM |